April 2, 2013

Has something changed?

A day begins with someone in my mind and I ask myself
Has something changed?

A moment of silence brings a smiling face infront of me
and I ask myself, Has something changed?

That sweet voice feels as a music full of love sang to me,
and I ask myself, Has something changed?

Few smiles on her face are everything else starts to fade away
and I ask myself, Has something changed?

Tiny bicker deems our whole day as The sad and a year long
and I ask myself, Has something changed?

Even death is seeming to be a better choice over her
and I ask myself, Has something changed?

Getting lost in her thought is the most beautiful magic around
and I ask myself, Has something changed?

Time spent, many attempts struggling just to finish this poem
and I ask myself, Has something changed?

There is a hint of satisfaction, as I am typing these words
So……… I ask. Has something changed?

My whole life changed, when a precious little flower became my life
and everything  in it

October 24, 2012

Reality about me: Nabin Nepal

Realizing who you are and how you perceive things around you is one of the biggest step you will ever take in life. Like a good job and good academic background, this is also the base upon which you will keep growing up.

 Phisophically I am a realist and behaviorally I am an introvert.

On the remainder of this post, I am going to tell who I really am based on this two topics. I will taking help of few articles already on the internet. Why?  Who will believe what I say? seriously, Who the hell am I?.

I am Nabin Nepal, and I am just a simple guy. If you take your time to read through them, hopefully you will be able to meet me next time without feeling ackward around me. 😉

The realiable Realist

Source: Your iPersonic Type: The Reliable Realist

Reliable Realists like me are down-to-earth and responsible-minded. They are precise, reserved and demanding. Their most prominent quality is reliability and they will always make every effort to keep any promise given. Reliable Realists are more quiet and serious persons, they do not talk a lot but they are good listeners. They sometimes seem reserved and distant to outsiders although they have a great deal of wit and esprit. Their strong points are thoroughness, a marked sense of justice, doggedness and a pragmatic, vigorous and purposeful manner. They do not dither about if something has to be done. They do what is necessary without wasting words.

They not only expect a lot of themself but also of others. Once they have set their mind on something, it is difficult to persuade them otherwise. They do not like to leave anything to chance. Planning means safety to them, as well as order and discipline. They have no problem respecting authorities and hierarchies but do not like to delegate tasks. They are certain that others would not deal with them as conscientiously as they do. In management positions, they are very task-oriented – they make sure that things are well done; however, they do not have a great deal of interest in personal contacts at work.

As a Reliable Realist they belong to the introverted personality types. They don’t appreciate too much commotion around them preferring to work relatively independently of others. They need to give themselves plenty of time to work in peace and deal with their projects thoroughly and intensely. Their ability to concentrate is exceptionally high and if they are interested in something they can truly immerse themselves forgetting everything around them. Very strongly team-oriented professional fields, or employment where their concentration is continuously disturbed, or their work is disrupted, are not really for them. It is just too important to them to complete their projects really well.

One or two colleagues who are on their wavelength or possibly a small group of like-minded colleagues are the most they need. Too many people are stressful to them because the emotionality and irrationality that comes with interpersonal relationships tends to disturb them. They are reserved when revealing themselves, and often have the effect of being aloof. Sometimes, and although it may not be their intention, they even convey the impression of being dismissive to the people around them. The continuous locker room and water cooler banter enervate them more than anything else. For them, work is work, and they feel that private matters don’t really belong there. When they choose their profession, watch out that they are not made to adjust to and interact with others around the clock.

Reliability is their middle name. Whoever hands them a project can rest assured that it will be handled diligently and delivered on time. The thought not to keep a promise or a commitment on time is total horror to them. Therefore, it is important to them to be in an environment providing smooth working conditions where they receive consistent and predictable feedback about their efforts. Clear and definite objectives, and the assurance that the necessary resources for their activities will be available, are a must.


Few years back, I thought myself as I am an introvert with people I don’t know and extrovert around people I know, colleagues, family, friends e.t.c. But as it turns outs this behavior is complete introversion. I am not unaware of the fact that such tendencies are not social, but nevertheless it is very normal behavior.

The common modern perception is that introverts tend to be more reserved and less outspoken in groups. They often take pleasure in solitary activities such as reading, writing, using computers, hiking and fishing. The archetypal artist, writer, sculptor, engineer, composer and inventor are all highly introverted. An introvert is likely to enjoy time spent alone and find less reward in time spent with large groups of people, though he or she may enjoy interactions with close friends. Trust is usually an issue of significance: a virtue of utmost importance to an introvert choosing a worthy companion. They prefer to concentrate on a single activity at a time and like to observe situations before they participate, especially observed in developing children and adolescents.They are more analytical before speaking.Introverts are easily overwhelmed by too much stimulation from social gatherings and engagement, introversion having even been defined by some in terms of a preference for a quiet, more minimally stimulating environment.

Introversion is not seen as being identical to shy or to being a social outcast. Introverts prefer solitary activities over social ones, whereas shy people (who may be extroverts at heart) avoid social encounters out of fear,and the social outcast has little choice in the matter of his or her solitude.

Source: Extraversion and Introversion

Mostly people take introversion in a very wrong way. There are a lot of misunderstanding with the topic of Who are introverts? Below are the a list of myths that the society has regarding introvert people.

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.

Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.

Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.
Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.

Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.
On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.

Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.
Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.

Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.
Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.

Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.
Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.

Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.
Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.

Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.
Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.

Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.
A world without Introverts would be a world with few scientists, musicians, artists, poets, filmmakers, doctors, mathematicians, writers, and philosophers. That being said, there are still plenty of techniques an Extrovert can learn in order to interact with Introverts. (Yes, I reversed these two terms on purpose to show you how biased our society is.) Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.

It can be terribly destructive for an Introvert to deny themselves in order to get along in an Extrovert-Dominant World. Like other minorities, Introverts can end up hating themselves and others because of the differences. If you think you are an Introvert, I recommend you research the topic and seek out other Introverts to compare notes. The burden is not entirely on Introverts to try and become “normal.” Extroverts need to recognize and respect us, and we also need to respect ourselves.

Source: 10 Myth about introverts

Carl, wrote these points based on his experience. And me myself as an introvert am saying that these facts are very true and often misunderstood by almost everyone.


Some of my close friends often get surprised at me. Quoting some of my them:

danny says

I think too much. More than it is necessary.

mundre says,

Haven’t seen anyone, who takes his relations this seriously.

Fucchi says,

I am so complicated.

I really don’t know what to tell you guys, neither I have anything to  tell to other people reading this post. It’s just a simple reality about me 🙂

February 20, 2012

My cycle and the cyclist in me

7th Standard, during the weeks between Dashain and Tihar was the first time I got my cycle, A mountain bike (during those time every bike with gears used to be called mountain bikes). I took so much pride on having it. I still remember my struggles trying to learn to ride. How I couldn’t reach my bike’s pedal and used higher slopes get moving while learning to balance. The bruises between my legs from the bike’s frame still breaks me into laugh. But they were good old times, very precious and memorable.

Since then cycling has been be a part of daily life. I don’t remember since when my daily cycling turned out into a hobby. A true hobby, where I find a missing part inside me when I am riding it. The cyclist in me is growing ever since, so is my cycle but to the best I can afford.

It sickens me how people tend to judge me, just because I ride my cycle to college, to office, to even dates(O.o). But hardly any one tries to think even for a single second, it is a desperate attempt of a man who is trying to do what he loves out of his busy schedule.

For a man to succeed in anything, there has to be a motivational factor, but sadly the only one who is motivating me towards cycling is just me. I got no team to ride off with, no support from my family (I am still considered stupid from spending 18,000 on a cycle), nothing what so ever.

Here is a funny flashback! I remember at my college, when one of my buddy Bishal brought a cool looking new bike, and one of my other friend Anju, was laughing about it. Her very words were “13000(less than $200) on a cycle, what a stupid”

I have few contacts on the pro line and get some chance to go on with them for some rides, but when I am there the first line I hear is “You are going to ride that??? That cycle is not going to work!! Try to hire this and that… blah blah blah” and so on. So irritating and frankly a lot demoralising.

I ride Motache CSJ 795 currently. If you search for that cycle in Google, I don’t think you will find any links on it. If you do, I am a lucky man. That cycle has no reputation at all on the pro cycle world here in Nepal, I cannot even imagine whether it is also regarded as a rideable bicycle on other nations. But Nepal is pretty renowned for off-road cycling, so may be I am just underestimating my country/my surname(:D). Either way, I think I have made my point.

Pro cyclist, cycle shop owners look at me on a very awkward way as if they are saying “Look at that guy, riding on such a piece of shit, and thinking he is a cyclist”. Now, comes another part. After, I am away from those mega stars and onto my daily routes, guys walking by the streets, now look at my bike and say “Wow, what a bike, look at how fast is he going!”. This world is such a funny place you know. Sometimes, it keep on wondering, am I the stupid one, or is this world completely loco.

There is a guy at my area, who dresses up like a pro and rides Trek 7200 (worth Rs: 1, 20, 000). One day after my office I met this guy at little bit ahead of TB Teaching hospital, we raced from there to the temple. We had a stiff competition, sometimes me ahead of him and vice versa. At the very last slope of Budhanilkantha temple, he pushed up and won the final round. It was a good race, he was more skilled on the uphill and sprinted faster. The next day, I was surprised to see this guy again. It was this time, I came to know he rides Trek 7200 and he came to know I ride Motache. The guy who was going neck and neck with me, suddenly drops behind me and never challenges me or be challenged since then. What a pathetic discriminative loser, even with a normal bike, I was making that guy sweat his *ss and still I am worthy enough to race with with 7 Series.

I have rode cycle that cost up to NRS: 320,000 also, but when will I own such a bike is really a surprise. I do not want to spend so much on a bike, since I am not quite involved on professional racing. Still my next cycle will probably be Cannondale Trail SL 3 and I am really looking forward to it.

January 12, 2012

My Future

Out of the blue.. sometime the thoughts of my future haunts me & I end up shaking…..

Most of the people I see around me are less complicated. They take this life the easy way…. But  then again it is only through my eye. After all, who can really see through a person? Right?

I am a simple person… with simple needs.

SIMPLE! Really?

Who am i kidding too? Myself? LOL…

Desires… is the only thing that affects one life..

It changes the course of your life

  • Your ambition
  • Your aim
  • Your career
  • Your Business
  • Your academic career
  • Your future
  • Your Girl/Boyfriend
  • Your Wife/husband
  • or even love of your life

If somebody doesn’t have desire!!.. they might as well drop whatever that they are doing… and start being jogi or sadhu or saint or vicchu.. whatever suits there personality.

How many desires you have? Just count ’em… big house, good business, happy family, ferrari (this is mine :P)  and the list goes on and on…


No matter to what they are or how many they are… the important thing that comes at last in MONEY.

Don’t lie to yourself… if you have desires… you cannot forget MONEY… because believe it or not.. it is probably the Greatest Resource and the Biggest Obstacle.. that you will always encounter unless either you are dead or have no desires left.

SO, here is the big equation of the day
future ∝ desire ∝ money

After such a long nonsense, lets me start talking about my future, now

My future… Oh Boy……

What is going to happen to me? Where am i going to end up in the next five years?

Will i become important to somebody?

  • to some company?
  • to some field?
  • to some society?
  • to my family?

or, I will end up being the trash in the dustbin of this world.

What will i become?..

  • rich?
  • poor?
  • famous?
  • infamous?
  • rich & infamous?
  • be poor & famous?

or just mad?

What will be my biggest ambition then? 

  • Survival?….
  • Success?…
  • Responsibility

or will i be trying to escape?

What will happen to my career? Will i

  • reach the top position? …
  • still be truggling on

or Dumped on the pit bottom?

What will happen to my role as a family member? 

  • be respected?
  • be loved?

… or just a big burden?

What will happen to my studies? 

  • onto PhD?
  • or a FULL STOP at undergrad…

or a big stuck up on undergrad? beats me 😉

Study! where will i be studying? 

  • nepal?
  • or abroad?

or, my study ship would have set sails long ago. ha ha 😀

How will i  be then? 

  • happy?
  • sad?
  • settled?
  • hopeless?
  • satisfied?

or just frustrated?

Will I find the love of my life by then? 

  • or will she find me?
  • or still be searching?
  • or end of with another broken heart? 🙁

or just another “FOREVER ALONE” troll

So many questions…. race through my mind in a flash that i cannot even stop for a sec to think it twice and calm my self down.

:: The pressures ::
:: The responsibilities ::
:: The ambitions ::
I have

will not even take a second to change to


and i end up breathing a heavy cold breath….

In the end 
my future is terrorizing threat rather than EXCITEMENT
November 17, 2011

My First Blog

Today, November 17, 2011 13: 11 (GMT + 5:45), I am composing my first blog ever. My name is Nabin Nepal. I am 20 year 7 months 12 day 3 hours old, living in a small area of Budhanilkantha in Kathmandu. Professionally I am a programmer. Academically, I am doing my undergrad. I am invisible to most of people (I actually like it that way ;)), but among those who see me I am known as Nabin to most, as Starx to some, as neo to very few & as Knobin, to a special friend Kabir Basnet, who thought of this name…… and also became the name of my blog — — —


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